Found in Him

 

 

Shadowfeet

when the world has fallen out from under me
I'll be found in you, still standing
When the sky rolls up and the mountains fall on their knees
when time and space are through
I'll be found in you

 

2010  proved to be a difficult year indeed. 

This song rung true for me as I faced life's challenges.  I can remember in Sept. 2010 feeling like hope was far from me and that I needed to hold strong to God's promises that he will indeed provide.  Many of you know our God Story, it is amazing to me to even think back on that time where God proved to be our salvation.  He has always been with us and we are blessed by his sacrifice for us.  He amazes me in how much be deeply loves each one of us.  I wrote this pray on Sept. 17, 2010, in the hopes that we would still be standing. We are!

"May the God of all creation bless you and keep you and may you know that you, my dear friend, are DEEPLY loved! Amen & Amen."

 

God touches my heart and soul like no other person on earth. My own husband and children fail in comparison to God and for that I am grateful.  My hope does not lie in my family or even the amazing man I married but it completely and whole heartily lies in God. 

 

On Dec.5th of this last year JM and I where at church for the morning service and at the end of the service I was in tears.  Tears of joy and tears of feeling unworthy of God's blessings on our family and in my life.  I turned to JM and he asked what was wrong.  With every ounce of breathe I could mustard up I said, "God has blessed us, He has blessed us more than I could have ever imagined."  I was then that I felt God's arms of love surround us as we thanked God together in our embrace.  

2010 proved to be a faithful year indeed.  

It was the year that JM and I had to believe that God wanted more for us.  He wanted a better home, a better family, a better life.  2010 changed me forever when we had to surrender our own abilities to provide for ourselves over to God.  It was humiliating and humbling all at the same time.  Surrendering to God for us meant allowing His people to provide for us.  For me it meant being honest enough to say that we where not making it, our house was facing foreclosure and we could not provide the bare necessities to run our family.  It was a pride issue for me.  An issue that I really did not even know I struggled with so much.  As we saw God's church provide for us God showed his unfailing love for us through it all.  By allowing me to be open and confess my sins, our church allowed us to experience God like never before. They freed our family from our everyday worries to allow us to turn to God with all that we had and listen.  We learned this verse "Be still and know that I am God" and put it into practice.  For me that meant spending more time listening to the ones around me like my children and husband.  It allowed me to be quick to forgiveness and quick to see my own faults.  By no means are we "there yet" in fact we are just beginning our journey and we are excited for all that God continues to do in our lives.  Our kids have grown closer and deeper to God this past year.  Rebekah gave her life to the Lord this past year in church.  Caleb has enjoyed being a part of Rainbows at church and you can see his tender heart for the Lord.  I am blessed to have a rich and deep love for God as my heavenly Father. We as a family are honored to have JM as a man of God seeking God's own heart as he leads us closer to Him.  

2010 proved to be an amazing year indeed.  

On Jan. 1, 2010 our car ran out of gas on the way to Pasadena.  It seemed to be a "well this is just how our life goes" kind of thing.  Little did I know it would be a foreshadow for me to see how we need to stop and wait to hear God.  JM left us on the side of the road to go find gas for the car.  What seemed like forever was only a little bit of time until we where back on the road.  The months of  July, Aug, Sept were just that.  A time of listening to God for all he would have for us.  Our prayer was that God would provide and that he would show us what we could not even dream of.  

I would have never thought that we would be here, but here is were it is the best, all four of us in God's arms of faithfulness and love.  Although our story stems around our business and how we are trusting God to provide financially for us, it is encompassed by his provision for us and us allowing ourselves to completely trust God with everything we have and everything that we are to be. 

 

Thank you Lord for the salvation your Son has brought us and for living with us, using us to tell of your great news. 

So my prayer for 2011 is this:

"Dear friends since we are still standing, may we live in the freedom of Christ as deeply loved children knowing that our God is able and desires us to be with Him!  Amen & Amen!"