2009

2009 was a challenging and blessed year for me. I started the year thinking I was going to loose Robeck Design. This was the hardest thing I had to deal with as a person. Robeck Design has been an amazing little company for my family. My prayer before Rebekah was born was that RD would be able to sustain my family. And for the last three and half years it has. This past year though I was desperate to provide for my family. I have never in my life felt such pain in not being able to provide for them. There literally was nothing I could do. So in the middle of the year I stopped. For 40 days I just stopped trying to provide and starting seeking God with all of my being. Our entire family trusted in God to provide. These 40 days where my 2009! It was for our family, I can not fully explain all that God did in our lives and how he provided but he did and he did more than just sustain us. He showed us dreams that where far greater than our own.

My little company has been blessed and finished the year extremely well. I love that I can stay home and work and spend as much time as I want with my family. That is a blessing in deed and JM will say that I have the best job in the world. In fact I really did not understand how blessed I was to be able to do what I do until this past year. For years JM has been telling me how great I have it and I just could not see it. But I do now. I Love the life God has given to me.

Some milestones this year where RRR going to kindergarten. Wow, Kinder already! I had mixed emotions about it all but on that first day of school we where all ready. We all walked to school together and said our good byes. No tears just big smiles. Rebekah has been my biggest challenge and my biggest joy. I love her with all that I am. My best moment with RRR this year was at the alter. A moment I will never forget as it was a time of forgiveness, love, hope and joy. If I could just breathe a little deeper every time I am with her I would be able to enjoy all her craziness a little more  . She is in fact crazy and high strung just like me of course. With all my love Rebekah you are heart and love.

Caleb, well Caleb is indeed a bon-a-fide crazy man. A huge milestone for him this year was cutting his hair. We chopped off over 8 inches and he was a different little man. He found his face in 2009 and with that his sense of humor. Caleb loves to be with people and love to be able to make them laugh just be close to them. I love that about him. It is as though he watches for the person that is in need and then tries to fulfill that need with his tender love. He has often times done that with me. When I feel like I am just done he reaches out and says, “hey mom, I love you so much!” That is Caleb. Those words and his heart felt love for people.

I am so proud of both the kids for all they have done this year; the biggest in both their lives is drawing closer to God. I thank our church for that and the community of people that have helped us raise such God loving children. It is so amazing to me that at such a young age they know who Jesus is and understand his love for them and ask him to help them in their little lives. Thank you Jesus for loving our family!

Then there is the love of my life. A hard love at times and a wonderful love all the time! Thank you JM for allowing me to be crazy and for teaching me to love. This year was hard and thankfully we got through it all, as we often do. John Mark is my best friend; he is with me, forgives me, helps me see straight, puts me in my place, encourages me, dreams with me and most of all loves me. He is mine and what an amazing gift he is to me and my life. I know I am not the easiest person to live with and he will agree; but we work hand and hand trusting God and following God’s call on our lives. There is nothing better than having Christ as the center of our marriage and of our lives. With Christ we are able.

So 2009 was in one word AMAZING. I choose that word because we grew in community at our church, we loved and made new friends, we had tons of people over for dinner, we listened, prayed and where thankful. Thank you to everyone who prayed for us during 2009 as we ran after God. Thank you to everyone who prayed and supported us to go to El Salvador where our hearts grew and melted!!! And thank you to all for your love and friendship. 2010 is here and we are trusting God everyday!