Happy

I must say that much of 2009 I spent worrying and praying. Today though I feel happy. It as though there is a real life of happiness that I just can not explain. We got up with crying babies that did not want to school, emails that had to be sent out, texts that came in way too early and a cup of coffee. But when Caleb was peeing in the bushes outside our house b/c we where late for school I looked up and saw the amazing clouds and the sun shining through. In that moment (while CMR was still peeing in our bushes) I felt happy. Happiness is just a feeling that I can choose to have or not have and often times I just forget to seek it.

I love having this feeling of happiness just come out of my life. I know that tomorrow will probably bring a different emotion and I hope that it will be great. If I can remember these moments I am sure it will be easy to choose. I love God and what he gives us to see him and I love my kids for who they are and who we are shaping them to be. It is hard not to dream for them but I do. I dream that they will love God, love people and be hopeful. That they will choose happiness and that they will choose to be kind and loving. That RRR will love to sing for the rest of her life, that her artist in her will shine and that her love for people will grow and that she will learn to read and read many book! And that she will always seek Christ first. For Caleb I dream for a passion for God like no other. For his kindness and love for people to grow and for his love for helping and building to shine in his life. I dream that his hands will touch peoples lives. How I love them!

Take care of us, oh Lord.