Day 38 of 40

Today was a crazy day, it was hot and we had a lot to do. We attended the VU Debrief Day and I was encouraged again at God's call on our lives. Then we where off to have high tea with JM's mom (me and RRR went to tea and the boys stayed at JM's parents house) but it was these two events that brought me to think that not everyone is going to agree with God's plan for your life and they may not even like it but at this point it is not about liking it or challenging it but more like being open to God wrecking MY life (the life I have planned). So let him; let him turn the shoe box upside down, shake it up and then tell me here you go. I don't always have to be in LOVE with God's plan and sometimes I may not even like it. I can tell you one thing, I was not head-over-heels about doing a 40 day fast. But I was willing to engage in an intimate time with God to believe that he could sustain me, provide for me and give me faith and he did a whole heck of a lot more than that. HE LOVED me in a deep and profound way that no one can understand but me, because it is a love dance just for him and I.

So when I talk about all the amazing things God has done over the last 38 days those are just things that showed me the depth of his love but the feeling of his love was much greater than the thins he gave. What an awesome God we serve that he loves us so. That he wants everything for us and that his plan is to grow us and change us. So because of that, I am open and my prayer is to remain open way after these 40 days are done. I pray that my heart will soften even more and I will become gentle even after the 40 days are over. I still have a lot of work that needs to be done in me and The 40 days was just a millimeter of the time it will take to grow!

Praising God for ever and ever!